Not Interested

There's a tendency, when you talk about things you're not interested in any more, to come across like you're using it for ego. As if by saying such a thing you're declaring your interests are somehow better than what other people care about. It gets sharper when the things you've gone off are things you used to be deep into yourself, as if you've moved on to some higher plane and now look down on the rest. That's not what I'm doing here, and I want to make that clear before I get into it.

The truth is I'm just not interested in pretty much all the things I cared about before. Phones, laptops, operating systems, who's the CEO of what and whose company turned over a trillion dollars this quarter, none of it does anything for me at the moment. If you do care about that stuff thats’s awesome. I really mean that, I just don't have anything to add in that realm right now and I'm not going to pretend otherwise.

What this means in practice is that I'm hard pushed to find a reason to even post anything. My motivation has drifted into other areas, and I think that's ok.

Some of this is the natural drift of getting older. The new phone is more or less the same as the old phone with a slightly different camera, the new laptop is faster than the one I have which is itself faster than I need, and there's no moment left where something arrives and splits my life into a before and after. The list of moments where the wonder hits has run out for the time being, and I've stopped expecting the next one to come along any time soon.

If the posts get thinner on the ground for a stretch, that's the reason. Not some higher state I've reached, just that I'm not going to write about something I don't care about for the sake of having written it. To paraphrase Avicii, one day I will leave this world behind, so I want to live one worth remembering. At the minute there no space in it for things that I used to spend hours engrossed in.